July 9th, 2013

Weigh in: 166.4 (-1lb. from yesterday)

Currently Watching: Garden Party

Current Thinspo: Willa Holland

Currently Reading: Wasted by Marya Hornbacher (almost done!)

I have been binging a lot lately due to stress at work

I did a liquid fast today

Only 2 iced coffees & a diet coke

I've started to make lists of "rejected food" that I have refused to eat 

it makes me feel in control.

I've decided to start a new diet that I'm calling "selective menu"

basically, restricting...

This includes:

Breakfast: 

1 iced coffee (30)

1 apple (80) OR 20 grapes (69)

Lunch:

Diet Coke (0)

2 Stalks of celery (12) OR 1 medium carrot (25) OR 1 cup of cucumber (16)

Dinner:

Herbal tea

* Allowed to eat protein when feeling weak ~ 1 veggie dog (50)

* If FORCED to eat than stick to a salad with the dressing on the side

* Allowed to eat either sugar free jello (5) or caramel rice cake (50) when feeling the need to binge

*Allowed to eat either 2 Ryvita Crackers (70) or a Rice Cake (40)  on the weekends

I have a friend who I'll be texting my intake to

in order to keep my intake in check

We'll also be each others "binge busters"

My trip to Paris is going to be coming sooner than I think

I need to lose this weight.

Call Me Maybe?

I'm a horrible friend.

My old friends from Uni. have texted & e-mailed me

I have yet to respond. 

The only time I contacted my friend was when 

she found my mother on facebook 

& messaged her about me(I deactivated my account)

Since then she replied & sent another e-mail as well as texts.

I lied & said my phone wasn't working properly

or that I was busy

I haven't seen my friends since January.

It's not that I don't want to see them (well kinda..)

I just want to be thin when I do.

People whom you haven't seen in months are more likely

to notice if you've lost weight

as opposed to those that you see 24/7

Oh, Scodelario! [THINSPO]

I just finished watching "Skins: Fire"

I have and will always love her figure

Enjoy the Spam!

xox

July 3rd, 2013

Weight: 164.6 (-2.2lbs.)

Intake:

Too Much.

Exercise:

Not Enough.

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I pre-planned my day.

150 calories. No more, no less.

I woke up late and was already stressed about my day.

The fact that the kitchen was empty triggered a binge.

This binge was repeated throughout the day.

Especially as I became more and more stressed.

I purged a bit but I doubt it made a difference.

I am dreading tomorrows weigh in.

I plan on doing a liquid fast for the rest of the week.

July 2, 2013

Weight: 166.8 (-3lbs.)

Intake:

Breakfast:

Pear Baby Food (70)

Lunch:

2/3 cup of Baby Food puffs (40)

McDonalds Large Coke Zero (0)

Dinner: 

Carrot Baby Food (50)

Water w/ lemon (0)

Cinnamon & Sweetener tea (0)

McDonalds Large Diet Coke (0)

Exercise:

375 minutes cleaning (921)

8 km walk (292)

200 side stretches (per side)

100 windmill stretches

200 inner thigh stretches (per leg)

200 scissor kicks (per leg)

8 minute arms [youtube video]

8 minute arms [youtube video]

200 crunches

3 minute dance

July 1st, 2013

Intake: 

Breakfast: Cinnamon/Sweetener tea

Lunch: Diet Coke

Dinner: Two cups of lavender tea w/ cinnamon

Exercise:

A few hours of gardening/weeding

New Month, New Goal

I'll admit, 

I'm one of those girls that goes all out with dieting at the start of the month, 

gets so overwhelmed by work that I stress out

 & binge more than restrict/fast

I weighed in this morning at 169.4...Almost threw the scale out the window.

A few summers ago I was focused on work, restricting & over exercising

I lost 30lbs. and felt amazing. 

Since then, I've had family members die which caused me to binge 

I went from the 140s to the 160s

I've been squatting here for sometime and I need to lose.

I'm currently taking Raspberry Keytones & CLA

as well as Hoodia extract &

 fiber pills which help to keep me full

I'm planning on doing a liquid fast today

in order to ring in the new month on a good note.

I'll update later.