Mischa Barton: Weight A Second!

Before

Now

I used to watch The O.C religiously, becoming more & more 

jealous of Mischa's body.

I decided to start watching it again and I

realized I haven't seen her in years.

The last thing I recall seeing her in is St. Trinian's 

which was in 2007. 

According to imdb.com

she hasn't taken a break from acting but most of her films

 are B-listed or straight to DVD.

It seems that in Hollywood, 

your weight correlates to your success

much like in real life where thinness & beauty 

give you more opportunities.

As much as I hate bashing celebs 

its great to use as a warning of what happens when you gain.

Leslie is the Mann!

George of the Jungle (1997)

This is 40 (2012)

I just finished watching This is 40 

I cannot believe how amazing Leslie Mann's body is, 

especially after having two children.

The first time I ever saw her was in George of the Jungle

That's roughly 24 years ago

She still looks the same & maintained her shape.

Paparazzi shot (2013)

I mean, for fucksakes!

This woman is older than I am & has a thigh gap

I hope to God that I can look that good in my 40s

June 29, 2013

Currently Watching: LOL (2012)

Currently Reading: Wasted by Marya Hornbacher

List of Things to do today:

Ship package (trying to sell my University books online)

Get tragus piercing (gift to myself for passing my driving test)

Banking

Weeding (in order to keep my mum off my back)

I look laxatives last night after binging.

I already have the whole weekend-binge mindset

the fact that its a long weekend scares the crap out of me.

I cancelled plans with my friend today in order to have one day to restrict

ended up binging this morning [fuck]

I'm hanging out with my friend all day tomorrow 

I hate having people over because I forget what normal people eat

I'm an all or nothing kind of girl

I either restrict like crazy or binge on anything and everything

I'm fasting for the rest of the day & exercising like crazy

My mum will be happy that I'll be doing tons of chores today.

Ready, Set, Go!

I've started countless journals/diaries and religiously wrote everything down but after a while my forgetfulness turned into abandonment. Since everything is so high tech in today's society, I figured I would start blogging about my eating disorder/weightloss in order to stay on track and be more accountable of my actions.

I haven't weighed myself since Sunday because of my period. Not knowing my weight is killing me but I get triggered so easily and due to the fact that I bloat like crazy on my period, any sign of weight gain will make me binge.

I find it easy to restrict during the week, especially since I clean houses which means I'm always on the go burning calories. However, I tend to restrict during the week and binge on the weekends (occasionally purging when I have the chance) but since my mother informed me that we will be going to Paris/Southern France in August I need to get my ass into shape.

I have about a month to get back on track, I'm cutting calories and overexercising in order to lose as much weight as possible.