September Blues

Date: 06/09/2013

Weigh In: 158.8

Currently Watching: Huge (tv show)

Current Thinspo: Mary-Kate Olsen

Currently Reading: Wintergirls

I hate when September rolls around and all the students are off to school and I'm stuck here. 

I love the strict regime of school

I love learning and I love restricting while I'm at school.

Unfortunatly I quit my job at the end of August in order to go to France with my mum

Now I'm stuck trying to find a new job. 

Truth be told, I miss my old job cleaning houses as I lost so much weight 

and could fast without people asking questions.

As much as I love the Fall fashions and being able to layer clothes to hide my body,

 it reminds me that winter is coming soon which means the year is practically over.

I've vowed to workout as much as possible outside (walking dog, biking) 

especially since I don't have a job right now. 

I'll wait until the snow comes (November) and then I'll get a gym membership 

before all the "New Year's Resolutions" people invade the gym.

My mum has been driving me crazy, constantly nagging and me and barking orders

it makes me not want to apply to jobs because she keeps yelling at me about it. 

I also want to move out asap but I need a job first.

All this anger towards her has motivated me to do a hungerstrike.

Unfortunatly, it was broken the other day when we had a family BBQ 

I couldn't avoid it.

I ended up eating and then leaving to purge

after everyone left I exercised for the rest of the night.

I'm going to the Fall Fair tonight with my friend, not eating.

I then have a wedding on Saturday and I can't avoid brunch

the good thing about being vegan is that you don't need an excuse to avoid certain foods.

I need to get to the 140s asap.